I can’t read my own articles…

It’s so difficult to read my old work.

When i wrote my first blog post for WordPress, i got so many compliments amd reviews, I felt amazing. I was on a roll after that, I was so inspired by myself and that i was sharing my stuff with the world yunno.

The momentum has dwindled considerably now. I find it hard to be consistent and the love of money has overshadowed the love for the craft.

I’ve been having sort of like a writer’s block I’d say. Missing deadlines and having tons of drafts that I’m not bold enough to post.

So, acknowledging the problem, i decided to draw inspiration by reading some my old work, to catch some of that heat i had.

The first one i read, my eyes just skimmed through the work, i couldn’t take in the words, I didn’t read it like I would another persons own. The second one was somewhat manageable, still skimming but amused at my own writing. I didn’t believe the lazy me lounging on my bed was the one that wrote it.

The rest of it was a breeze, i read the titles and moved on. I just couldn’t read it.

I was left even more uninspired than before.

I’m so self critical so when i give myself props, no matter how seldom that is, i really mean it.

I had no comments for myself, no lessons learned and no mistakes noted, i was being distant from my art.

I don’t know if this is a common issue with writers but seeing as I’m not a conventional writer, it probably isn’t.

How am i working on this?

Should i force myself to read my own blog? Nah, clearly that’s not a solution to the problem.

Well…I need to be inspired by myself. I need to be confident enough to post my work, accept reviews and critic myself appropriately.

I want to go back to it, read it and sigh, amazed at my own genius because if there’s something i most definitely am, it’s Genius.

Hopefully i get out of this zone and i know when i do, seeing as i have about 10 drafted blog posts, its going to be a lot of content. Sorry not sorry.

I hope I’m able to come back and read them next year.